The overwhelm had hit. Too much to do, too much uncertainty. We had hit a low spot in our journey of the tiny house build. We were worried about the weight of the house being too much for the trailer, worried about the weight on the tongue of the trailer being too much for the hitch of a truck, worried about how we were going to do the electrical, worried about if, after all this effort – physical, mental, emotional – we would have trouble even being allowed to live in it. That is a daunting endgame for a taxing voyage. It’s hard for me to work on a goal when I don’t even know that the outcome will be worth working towards – this is not the uncertainity of whether you’ll get there or not, but the uncertainty that if you finally do, will it not even be a finale.
We just needed a break. And more so, I needed a break from sharing the tumultuous journey. And so, for those of you who read, the posts stopped. With the holidays and their ramp up in activities and travel, it was easy to put the build of Hygge Hale, and it’s documentation, aside for a bit. The last post I made was at the end of November last fall, and, honestly, even that post was delayed by a couple months. I was feeling like I had fallen behind in every aspect of my life, this blog not the least. Even when we jumped back into the build in mid-January, refreshed after a month and a half hiatus, I still wasn’t ready to add on prepping and uploading the photos and figuring out the words to describe what we were doing and summarizing all the minutia. We have so filled the hours of our days in this modern society. I wanted to step out of that – as best as I could – coming to terms with my personality not being the one my society applauds. And, thinking about the minutes we spend, we wanted every minute spent thinking about the tiny house to be moving the build forward.
But now, it is an infrequent rainy weekend day here, with a pandemic putting the whole world on hold in many ways. Eli and I made some great progress on the build yesterday, bringing contentment, and a window of indoor time has presented itself. So, while Eli is a persistent builder, outside in our chilly damp barn working on our design for our light fixtures, I’m here in our cozy living room thinking I have come back to my spirit again to get back to typing away…
Hey Tracy! I think everyone has been there at some point. I admire the two of you for taking on such a challenge and have enjoyed being able to tag along. I’ve missed seeing progress, but totally get needing to recharge. Keep up the good work!
Thanks, Curtis! It’s really helpful to hear that folks enjoy the progress updates! Thanks for the support!
Right now the world is full of uncertainty. The most important thing for you two is to stay safe and sane!!
Agreed! The pandemic has created some perspective, and honestly, also some space. The tiny house build is an excellent project for us during the stay-at-home orders, and more time spent at home means less overwhelm of my time and more minutes for reporting on the tiny house build on this blog. I have to admit, I am happy that one of the benefits of having to telework full-time is that I’m not spending many lost hours each week in my frustrating commute. Thank you for your kind thoughts about our well-being! All is well here. I hope the same is true for you!